as 2010 comes to an end.

tomorrow is the last day of 2010. it's pretty bittersweet for me this year. 2010 has been hands-down, no-contest, abso-fuckin-lutely the BEST year of my life. here's a run down of the reasons i loved 2010:

-i learned the ins and outs of alcohol, useful skills for any college kid

- i met the right boy, at the right time. who would've ever thought...

- i travelled to connecticut, san diego, philly, arizona, philly (again), colorado, san diego (again), philly (again), new york, and florida.

- i gained three best friends, the gails, who i think i'll be friends with until the day i die

- i gained a second family. i feel so at home with the stacks.

- i gained a lot of other really good friends, some from meeting scott, some from classes i took

- i got my first job, one that i actually enjoyed!

- i got an iPhone. man, i love technology.

- i changed my major to something i think i'll really enjoy and be really good at

- i got an A in organic chemistry (biggest accomplishment of college thus far)

there's a saying that goes something like "choose the right person to marry. this alone will account for 90% of your life's happiness." but i don't think that's true. i think picking the best friends, travelling to the coolest places, having the greatest boyfriend in the entire world, going to one of the best colleges in the nation, and being genuinely blessed account for 99% of my life's happiness.

so cheers to an awesome year, and hope for an equally incredible 2011!

lots too. :)

so its been another month. thankgoodness. i'm SO ready for summer to be over. scotts random visit to indiana was good. i made him go to school with me, and we went to see toy story three the day it came out. ventured to terre haute for my grandmas buriel. and he got to meet all my mom's family. they liked him, but who wouldn't. on sunday morning i had a craving for chocolate chip muffins, so we went to the dollar store but they only had blueberry, so we bought those and put chocolate chips in ourselves. i definitely was not ready for him to leave.

the next eleven days went by so incredibly slowly. i still love my job. and school is a real breeze. my birthday was a lot of fun. spetter and porter and bobby drove up from greenfield for my party. and of course emily, cale, eringail, angel, amy, adam, dani, sara madren, and ryan buffone all came too. it was lots of fun. we swam, watched the US world cup soccer game, ate food, played pick two, and the mount vernon kids and i skyped scott for a little bit. scott had just gotten his wisdom teeth out, so i think we cheered him up by calling him. scott got me a bag of ruffles, a homemade card, a shirt, and a sweater for my birthday. it was nice. :)

so finally, after getting randomly depressed for a couple days after my birthday (which im pretty sure has something to do with being a girl...), it was july second. i drove myself to the airport at 4am and flew to denver to meet the stacks. colorado was beautiful. the first day there we ate lunch in a cute town called vail and i got to meet georgia sills, who chase wants to marry someday. the second day we went hiking at snowmass then chilled by the neighborhood pool. on the fourth of july we went white water rafting on the upper roaring fork river, rode our bikes to the playground and to the pool to swim, then went to the sills' for a fourth of july party. we stood out on their driveway and watched the carbondale fireworks; they weren't as good as purdue's but they were nice. i was supposed to leave on monday but lukily my flight got cancelled. i think that extra day with the stacks (even though scott was realllly sick all day) has made a huge difference in my amount of happiness away from him. i cried really hard at the airport when i said bye to scott and i felt awkward because i only had three tissues so i didn't want to use them until i was completely done crying. i decided that every morning when i wake up i need to tell myself positive things, so that i don't get randomly incredibly sad and missing scott badly. so i say "today is going to be a great day! i'm going to be happy all day, and not get sad at all. i'm a strong and independant person. and i'll see him soon enough." so far its worked, but its only been five days, and there are still ten more to go.

i can't wait for scott to be back in the land of corn. i think we're gonna go visit the kids from mount vernon after i pick scott up from the airport, so that will be fun. other than that i don't have anything planned. i was considering taking him to indiana beach. i think we'd both enjoy that. and then after scotts short 4-day visit here, i have to wait sixteen or seventeen more days before his whole family is here to move him into the house. and thennnn i'm going to san diego with them and chase the week before school starts. :) its gonna be super awesome. i'm incredibly excited.

"i love you." "i love you too." "lots." "lots too."

thank goodness it has been another month. summer is taking way too long. i just wanna go back to college. luckily, summer school starts monday, so i'll have something to do with my life again. the other fantastic news is that scott's coming to visit me next weekend! :) so we're only not going to see each other for 8 days, since i was just in philly this past weekend. at the beginning of the summer it felt awful because i was only going to visit him once, and he was only going to come visit me once, so we would have to wait basically a month between seeing each other each time. but with my random roadtrip to philly, scotts extra adventure to indiana, and going to colorado with the stacks and perrys for the fourth of july, the maximum amount of days between seeing him is only sixteen days. :) it makes me SUPER happy. i hate hate hate not getting to see him everyday. and he hates not getting to see me, too. so next summer we're gonna run away from home.

next weekend, when scott's here, we're burying grandma's ashes. i'm kinda glad he'll be here for that. he was there when she died and for the funeral, and he really helped me not be so sad. plus he'll get to meet pretty much my mom's entire family. they've been wanting to meet him, so that will bring some less-sad to the occasion. and afterwords scott and i are adventuring to sarah newlon and angel ford's grad parties.

but anyway, my planned philly trip was awesome. we played three different versions of life, ate lots of delicious food, and went on an adventure to the jersey shore. i even love scott's family's dog max now. i pet him lots. and max can do lots of cool tricks like shake hands and roll over. he sheds a lot, but whatev, he's pretty cute. and of course i love his family. they are seriously the happiest bunch of people ever, i'm pretty certain. they make it really easy to fall into the family, even if i am the one with brown hair so i don't match the rest of the family. my parents have yet to meet scotts family, which is crazy. when scott's family comes to move scott into his house for school our families are gonna go out to dinner. our dads can talk about money stuff that no one else understands. and our moms can talk about teaching and kids and whatnot, because they both like that. it'll be cute. :)

so once again, my life is wonderful. i'm also gonna be 19 in a couple weeks, which is completely crazy. i'm having a pool party, so hopefully a bunch of the mount vernon kids will be able to come up for it. i can't wait. and i'm sure my 19th year is going to be the best yet. because 2010 sure has been wonderful so far. once you have the right boy, nothing else could ever be too bad. i'm very blessed. and i know that.

maybe i'm just one of the lucky ones.

i drove 1400 miles just to see you.

i was going crazy. i missed scott a lot, i cried too much, i felt too lonely, and i hated it. so i texted alex spetter and asked him if he wanted to go on a 700 mile roadtrip to philly to see scott. he said yes, his parents said yes, scott was pumped, his parents were cool with it, and somehow my parents ended up letting me go. i've never missed someone so much in my entire life. i can't even describe how awful it was. and it was only six days that i didn't see him. i was way nervous about driving on the interstate, especially after my mom had to tell me all the awful situations i could possibly get myself in. but i wanted to see him SO bad; i would seriously do anything for that boy. people always say when you meet the one you'll "just know". well...i know. and it scares me. because that gives him so much power over me and my heart. but if there's anyone i trust enough to have all of me forever, its definitely him. and i know that he loves me just as much as i love him. i want the next two weeks go by quickly because being away from him is absolutely awful. they always say distance makes the heart grow fonder, and scott and i are going to prove them right.

something special.

time has flown by so quickly. in a week and a half i will officially be done with my freshman year of college. scary. because that means that in three more years, i'm out in the real world being a real person.  this weekend is going to include a LOT of studying, and i'm deffinitely not looking forward to it. chase, scott, and i are road-tripping to chase's house so they can get rid of a bunch of stuff and staying there for the weekend, so that should be a fun adventure.  got myself a job working with STAR for the summer, the program all the incoming freshman go to to register for classes and whatnot. basically i sit in a computer lab and help people who are confused.  got myself all registered for summer school classes, i'm taking chem and concert band. should be a not-completely-horrible time. and hopefully i'll get to be in the lafayette citizens band, which would allow me to earn a little bit of cash.  my mom and i are going on vacation to arizona the last week of may, which will be pretty fun. and then the beginning of june i'm going to philly for a week to see scott. the 25 days without him are going to be strange though, considering i haven't gone a day without seeing him since the week before we started dating.

scott and i are doing well, by the way. well, not so much physically, he has some sort of stomach acid problem that's been making him really sick and the doctors at push think i have mono, but i'm really not so convinced about that one. the other day we were talking before we went to sleep and he told me if i died he would cry for a long time. it was really cute. :) finally i have something real, and i'm not the only one who cares enough to try. i love him. and i'm going to miss him a lot. but when august rolls around, we'll be inseperable again.  my mom and i are driving him to the airport next sunday, and i'm sure i'll be the girl who makes a huge crying scene in the airport and everyone notices but tries not to stare at you.

my last and final news is quite shocking. more shocking than the fact that i go out and drink at least once most weekends, and have even drank to the point of blacking out once. (though i'm not allowed any alcohol for two months because of my "mono", so that'll put an end to that...) i tried a weed brownie. well, two of them. the first time i ate one, my head was kinda heavy, and i thought the sky looked pretty, but other than that nothing really happened. then the second time i ate one, i felt like it didn't work either. chase and porter played some weird game/trick on me and determined that i was high. i guess i kinda was? but, it was just on the verge. a not very intense high. though i did get the munchies like none other. i ate a bag of pretzels, a thing of cereal, a handful of tostitos, and eight cookies...haha. fatty. so basically, my weed experiments were unfruitful.  scott says a lot of people don't feel much the first time or two. next time i eat one, i expect some magic. basically, i've decided weed isn't that bad. i guess it happened the same way it happened with drinking. i would never do anything stupid or go out and smoke weed everyday of my life, but it can be okay from time to time. so don't be shocked if i ever talk about that kind of thing.

freshman year of college? i've changed SO much. i went from being this up-tight moral shy person to a person who likes to have fun and try new things. i've fallen in love, i've lost my virginity in both a drugs and alcohol way and a physical way, i've met lots of amazing people, i've grown up and learned to handle problems myself. i still can't cook, but hey, i've gotta start somewhere, right?